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孤獨沒有什麼不好。使孤獨變得不好，是因為你害怕孤獨。
──孤獨和寂寞不一樣。寂寞會發慌，孤獨則是飽滿的，是莊子說的『獨與天地精神往來』，是確定生命與宇宙間的對話，已經到了最完美的狀態。
──當你被孤獨感驅使著去尋找遠離孤獨的方法時，會處於一種非常可怕的狀態；因為無法和自己相處的人，也很難和別人相處，無法和別人相處會讓你感覺到巨大的虛無感，會讓你告訴自己：「我是孤獨的，我是孤獨的，我必須去打破這種孤獨。」你忘記了，想要快速打破孤獨的動作，正是造成巨大孤獨感的原因。
在這匆忙的城市裡，我們是孤獨的個體。
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我寫過一篇小說叫「因為孤獨的緣故」，後來成為一本小說集的書名。
二○○二年聯合文學舉辦一個活動，以「孤獨」為主題，邀我作了六場演講，分別是：情慾孤獨、語言孤獨、革命孤獨、思維孤獨、倫理孤獨、和暴力孤獨。
我可以孤獨嗎?
我常常靜下來問自己:我可以更孤獨一點嗎?
我渴望孤獨，珍惜孤獨。
好像只有孤獨生命可以變得豐富而華麗。
我擁抱著一個摯愛的身體時，我知道，自己是徹底的孤獨的，我所有的情慾只是無可奈何的佔有。
我試圖用各種語言與人溝通，但我也同時知道，語言的終極只是更大的孤獨。
我試圖在家族與社會裡扮演一個圓融和睦的角色，在倫理領域與每一個人和睦相處，但為什麼，我仍然感覺到不可改變的孤獨？
我看到暴力者試圖以槍聲打破死寂，但所有的槍聲只是擊向巨大空洞的孤獨回聲。
我聽到革命者的呼叫：掀翻社會秩序，顛覆階級結構！但是，革命者站在文明的廢墟上喘息流淚，他徹底知道革命者最後宿命的孤獨。
其實美學的本質或許是──孤獨。
人類數千年來不斷思維，用有限的思維圖解無限的孤獨，注定徒勞無功吧。。
我的孤獨六講在可懂與不可懂之間，也需無人聆聽，卻陪伴我度過自負的孤獨歲月。
我的對話只是自己的獨白。
2007.7.21
2008年4月23日 星期三
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The history of the classical music
The sound of Gregorian chant
Tractus: Domine, audivi
Nova Schola Gregoriana / Alberto Turco
Naxos 8.550952 (Gregorian Chant for Good Friday)
The sound of Gregorian chant, the oldest music we have in the Western world.
There was music long before, of course. The walls of Jericho were brought down by trumpets, Orpheus played the lyre and the Romans used the organ to provide suitable background music while Christians were fed to the lions. But exactly what that music was we don't know. It was not until music was first written down in about the year 600 that we begin to have any idea of what it sounded like, and even then, there's some dispute. Early notation, in the form of signs or neumes written above the words, simply tells us whether one note was pitched higher or lower than its preceding note. They were reminders to singers who already knew the tune. We have no idea of relative values, of pitch, of time, of key. Indeed, there were not then the major or minor keys as we understand them. Instead, in those early days there were modes, the most famous of which is probably the Phrygian mode.
The Phrygian mode
The idea of using lines, the lines of the stave in the form of a ladder, was certainly in use by the middle of the ninth century but with one line representing one pitch rather than, as now, every other pitch. It was Guido of Arezzo in about 1030 who suggested that adjacent pitches should be represented on adjacent lines, and spaces between the lines. He also built on earlier practice by suggesting that there should be a red line for F and a yellow line for C or that a letter should be put at the beginning of one of the lines, a C or an F. These letters form the basis of the modern clef used today. The system of writing music on lines clarified in this way meant that anyone could sing at sight music so written.
But first let us go back to the year 800 AD, for it was then that the history of Western music really starts. In that year Charlemagne became the Holy Roman Emperor. Vast tracts of Europe were united for the first time and Christian culture became the guiding force of Western civilisation. In art, architecture, literature, philosophy, music and intellectual life, Christianity was to provide the inspiration, so it's appropriate that the history of Western music should begin with the church.
Church music in the ninth century consisted, as it had done since the earliest days of Christianity, of plainsong or plainchant. This was based on the chants of the Jewish lectors, and was used for parts of the Christian liturgy, especially psalms, largely because the chanted word carried further and could be more easily understood than the spoken word. Chanting also helped raise the words onto a higher, more spiritual plane, and so those parts of the mass which were chanted became a special part of Christian ritual.
As Christianity spread throughout Europe in the fourth century, each new region produced its own variety of chant. There were originally five main forms of plainchant, similar, in a way, to local dialects. In France there was the Gallican rite, in Spain the Visigothic rite, in Celtic regions the Celtic, in Milan the Ambrosian rite, and in Rome the Roman. There were also subdivisions with important churches such as those in Milan, Metz and Toledo developing their own style, while in Salisbury, the Sarum rite was renowned. There was so much music around that it was thought necessary it should be edited and codified. In the sixth century, Pope Gregory the Great decided to reform the Roman school, probably by blending the Roman and Gallican styles, although exactly what he did is not clear. When, in 800, Charlemagne tried to restore cultural unity to the former Roman Empire, it was this rite, known after its founder as Gregorian chant, that became the standard form.
Tractus: Domine, audivi
Nova Schola Gregoriana / Alberto Turco
Naxos 8.550952 (Gregorian Chant for Good Friday)
The sound of Gregorian chant, the oldest music we have in the Western world.
There was music long before, of course. The walls of Jericho were brought down by trumpets, Orpheus played the lyre and the Romans used the organ to provide suitable background music while Christians were fed to the lions. But exactly what that music was we don't know. It was not until music was first written down in about the year 600 that we begin to have any idea of what it sounded like, and even then, there's some dispute. Early notation, in the form of signs or neumes written above the words, simply tells us whether one note was pitched higher or lower than its preceding note. They were reminders to singers who already knew the tune. We have no idea of relative values, of pitch, of time, of key. Indeed, there were not then the major or minor keys as we understand them. Instead, in those early days there were modes, the most famous of which is probably the Phrygian mode.
The Phrygian mode
The idea of using lines, the lines of the stave in the form of a ladder, was certainly in use by the middle of the ninth century but with one line representing one pitch rather than, as now, every other pitch. It was Guido of Arezzo in about 1030 who suggested that adjacent pitches should be represented on adjacent lines, and spaces between the lines. He also built on earlier practice by suggesting that there should be a red line for F and a yellow line for C or that a letter should be put at the beginning of one of the lines, a C or an F. These letters form the basis of the modern clef used today. The system of writing music on lines clarified in this way meant that anyone could sing at sight music so written.
But first let us go back to the year 800 AD, for it was then that the history of Western music really starts. In that year Charlemagne became the Holy Roman Emperor. Vast tracts of Europe were united for the first time and Christian culture became the guiding force of Western civilisation. In art, architecture, literature, philosophy, music and intellectual life, Christianity was to provide the inspiration, so it's appropriate that the history of Western music should begin with the church.
Church music in the ninth century consisted, as it had done since the earliest days of Christianity, of plainsong or plainchant. This was based on the chants of the Jewish lectors, and was used for parts of the Christian liturgy, especially psalms, largely because the chanted word carried further and could be more easily understood than the spoken word. Chanting also helped raise the words onto a higher, more spiritual plane, and so those parts of the mass which were chanted became a special part of Christian ritual.
As Christianity spread throughout Europe in the fourth century, each new region produced its own variety of chant. There were originally five main forms of plainchant, similar, in a way, to local dialects. In France there was the Gallican rite, in Spain the Visigothic rite, in Celtic regions the Celtic, in Milan the Ambrosian rite, and in Rome the Roman. There were also subdivisions with important churches such as those in Milan, Metz and Toledo developing their own style, while in Salisbury, the Sarum rite was renowned. There was so much music around that it was thought necessary it should be edited and codified. In the sixth century, Pope Gregory the Great decided to reform the Roman school, probably by blending the Roman and Gallican styles, although exactly what he did is not clear. When, in 800, Charlemagne tried to restore cultural unity to the former Roman Empire, it was this rite, known after its founder as Gregorian chant, that became the standard form.
Genral examination proficent test 2
a going-away party 惜別派對=a farewell party
farewell n. 再見It is up to sb to V... 有待某人來決定……例:It's up to you to decide where to go.(應當到哪兒去，有待你來做決定。)
grab a bite (to eat) 匆匆吃一口飯
run the red light 闖紅燈 (非某一高中課本所稱的run through the red light)a lovely restaurant 很漂亮/講究的餐廳
be supposed to V 應當……例:Everyone is supposed to finish work before leaving.(大家應當把工作做完才能離開。)
in the second quarter 第二季quarter n. 一季
cut our staff in half 將員工減半
Currently there is a balance of NT$2. 你目前只剩下兩塊錢新台幣的餘額hassle n. 麻煩; 麻煩的事
It's a hassle to V... 從事……是很麻煩的事。
make it to + 地方 趕到某地例:Did they finally make it to the station?(他們最後趕到車站了嗎？)
It's pointless Ving... 從事……是無用的。=It's pointless to V...例:It's pointlesslearning things without thinking.=It's no use learning things without thinking.=There's no use in learning things without thinking.=There's no point in learning things without thinking.(學而不思則罔。)
It really looks good on you. 你的髮型真的很好看。
the prime rib 頂級肋骨排
Could I please have it on the side?=Could I please have the butter on the side?=Could I please have the butter put on another dish? 可不可以麻煩你將奶油另外放在一個碟子上？
drip with sweat
汗水滴下have it on
將冷氣機保持在開的位置=have the air conditioner onin the first place
從一開始=from the beginningI knew in the first place that he was not the man we could trust.
(我從一開始就知道他不是個可以信賴的人。)
practically every morning this week.=...almost every morning this week.……這個星期以來幾乎每天早上。
be in one's best interest 對某人極有利例:It would be in your best interest to stay overnight here. It's rainning hard outside.(待在這兒過夜對你最好。外頭正下著大雨。)
seal off... 封鎖……
seal off all entrances and exits to the store 封鎖百貨公司所有的出入口
have on + 衣物 穿著……=wear + 衣物your grades have slipped...
你的成績不斷地下滑……beat the summer heat
擊退暑氣; 消暑=ward off the summer heat
We are now flying high about the Grand Canyon.=We are now flying high around the Grand Canyon.我們正翱翔於大峽谷的高空上。
take a closer look at... 細看……
First and foremost,... 首先也是最重要的,……
例:There are many ways to stay healthy. First and foremost, you should eat healthily.(有許多保持健康的方法。首先也是最重要的一點，就是你必須吃得健康。)
a bunch of teens 一群青少年=a few teenagers
farewell n. 再見It is up to sb to V... 有待某人來決定……例:It's up to you to decide where to go.(應當到哪兒去，有待你來做決定。)
grab a bite (to eat) 匆匆吃一口飯
run the red light 闖紅燈 (非某一高中課本所稱的run through the red light)a lovely restaurant 很漂亮/講究的餐廳
be supposed to V 應當……例:Everyone is supposed to finish work before leaving.(大家應當把工作做完才能離開。)
in the second quarter 第二季quarter n. 一季
cut our staff in half 將員工減半
Currently there is a balance of NT$2. 你目前只剩下兩塊錢新台幣的餘額hassle n. 麻煩; 麻煩的事
It's a hassle to V... 從事……是很麻煩的事。
It's pointless Ving... 從事……是無用的。=It's pointless to V...例:It's pointless
It really looks good on you. 你的髮型真的很好看。
the prime rib 頂級肋骨排
Could I please have it on the side?=Could I please have the butter on the side?=Could I please have the butter put on another dish? 可不可以麻煩你將奶油另外放在一個碟子上？
drip with sweat
汗水滴下have it on
將冷氣機保持在開的位置=have the air conditioner onin the first place
從一開始=from the beginningI knew in the first place that he was not the man we could trust.
(我從一開始就知道他不是個可以信賴的人。)
practically every morning this week.=...almost every morning this week.……這個星期以來幾乎每天早上。
be in one's best interest 對某人極有利例:It would be in your best interest to stay overnight here. It's rainning hard outside.(待在這兒過夜對你最好。外頭正下著大雨。)
seal off... 封鎖……
seal off all entrances and exits to the store 封鎖百貨公司所有的出入口
have on + 衣物 穿著……=wear + 衣物your grades have slipped...
你的成績不斷地下滑……beat the summer heat
擊退暑氣; 消暑=ward off the summer heat
We are now flying high about the Grand Canyon.=We are now flying high around the Grand Canyon.我們正翱翔於大峽谷的高空上。
take a closer look at... 細看……
First and foremost,... 首先也是最重要的,……
例:There are many ways to stay healthy. First and foremost, you should eat healthily.(有許多保持健康的方法。首先也是最重要的一點，就是你必須吃得健康。)
a bunch of teens 一群青少年=a few teenagers
2008年3月23日 星期日
熱情不再
這個blog本該都是英文的
但是感觸一時蜂擁心頭 不寫不快
沒有閒情逸致寫英文作文
年輕不再
我早已沒有足夠的熱情去改變一切困境
沒有足夠純粹的心情去玩成一件共同的任務
找回簡簡單單看著一個團體的人為著同一件事努力付出的感動
就像是當年只是因為純粹喜歡吹樂器 而去吹樂器
掙扎的心
我何嘗沒有過
當理由不再純粹
好像是從前大家早上不知為何目的就是該出現在大操場上完成一個沒意義的儀式
聆聽道貌岸然的長者說著我們早已知道的事實
然後 眼睜睜看著時光匆匆飛逝
相信就有可能
就有可能創造奇蹟
但問題是
如果當自己也不相信的時候 該怎麼辦
捫心自問
自己到底花了多少時間 多少的心力在上面
就像是游泳一直學不會
心中的恐懼究竟花了多少努力去克服 答案卻是沒有 沒有 一直都沒有
如果真打算獨善其身
如果根本沒打算付出努力
一開始就不該答應
或許，該不起的人是我
當然，人是其中很重要的因素
如果能完善的達成一件事就是有能力
簡單的一句話
我能力不足
走到了這一步
接下來的每一步
不要再有不知為何而做的責任義務
不必刻意自欺欺人假想一切都很完美
順其自然
也許就是最好的選擇
但是感觸一時蜂擁心頭 不寫不快
沒有閒情逸致寫英文作文
年輕不再
我早已沒有足夠的熱情去改變一切困境
沒有足夠純粹的心情去玩成一件共同的任務
找回簡簡單單看著一個團體的人為著同一件事努力付出的感動
就像是當年只是因為純粹喜歡吹樂器 而去吹樂器
掙扎的心
我何嘗沒有過
當理由不再純粹
好像是從前大家早上不知為何目的就是該出現在大操場上完成一個沒意義的儀式
聆聽道貌岸然的長者說著我們早已知道的事實
然後 眼睜睜看著時光匆匆飛逝
相信就有可能
就有可能創造奇蹟
但問題是
如果當自己也不相信的時候 該怎麼辦
捫心自問
自己到底花了多少時間 多少的心力在上面
就像是游泳一直學不會
心中的恐懼究竟花了多少努力去克服 答案卻是沒有 沒有 一直都沒有
如果真打算獨善其身
如果根本沒打算付出努力
一開始就不該答應
或許，該不起的人是我
當然，人是其中很重要的因素
如果能完善的達成一件事就是有能力
簡單的一句話
我能力不足
走到了這一步
接下來的每一步
不要再有不知為何而做的責任義務
不必刻意自欺欺人假想一切都很完美
順其自然
也許就是最好的選擇
Party transition
Yesterday, in Taiwan there is a sensation taken place; a new president arose by the votes, at last Mrs.Ma became the electee. In fact, I didn't have any profound feeling about that, and my vote became the one of the absentee ballots; recently, the publics in Taiwan has became much fantastic, and any absurd things which was reported on news may be happened.
No matter anyone become the first-past-the-post, I deeply hope that Taiwam would become more prosperous and ascensive.
No matter anyone become the first-past-the-post, I deeply hope that Taiwam would become more prosperous and ascensive.
2008年3月19日 星期三
SQL語法
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select zipid, COUNT(zipid) from address where id <= 10 group by zipid
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select * from list join zip where list.addressid = zip.id and number like '%80024400%'
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where list.addressid = address.id and address.zipid = zip.id
and number like '90%' and status = 'MS';
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2008年3月18日 星期二
One who want to succeesful must endure or enjoy loneliness.
One who want to be successful must endure or enjoy loneliness. I think the sentence do really make sense to me; never did I forget there is an important examination in July, and it is also an opportunity I can accomplish my dream and recovery some regrets; so, sometimes I feel that being solitary is so nice that I could do anything what I need to do heartily, keeping ataraxia and rational all the time; I always agree the Chinese sayings of Confucian, "群居終日,好行小惠,難矣哉"; But a friend told me that she can not bear with solitary at all, and she want that someone could accompany her whenever she walkd on the campus, ate out, bought something...... Is it a course that one must go through?In my view, maybe I also agreed before three years, now I feel it's so rediculous; and I reckoned that everyone has his or her own space , unfinshed things, I'm no exception.
There is not adequate time I could kill, maybe I must be use to enjoying loneliness as soon as possible.
2008年3月13日 星期四
Genral examination proficent test 1
be expecting a baby soon 即將生產
be getting used to N/Ving 漸漸習慣於……
a check-up 身體檢查=a physical check-up=a physical例:You should have a physical on a regular basis.(你要定期檢查身體。)
take some private lessons 私下請教練授課
in the rush hour 上下班交通顛峰時間=during the rush hour例:Cars usually move bumper to bumper during the rush hour.(在交通顛峰時間，汽車一輛挨著一輛徐徐前進。)
I'd like to report a lost Nokia cell-phone. 我想要掛失一只諾其亞手機。
That shirt looks great on you.=You really look great in that shirt.(那件襯衫穿在你身上很好看。)
In one's opinion,... 依某人看法,……=In one's view,...=One is of the opinion that...例:In my opinion, John is a man of his word.=I'm of the opinion that John is a man of his word.(依我個人看法，約翰是個言而有信的人。)
perform surgery on a patient 對某病人做手術=perform an operation on a patient
let sb down 使某人失望例:Hey, Jim, don't let me down.=Hey, Jim, don't dissappoint me.(嘿，吉姆，不要讓我失望。)
disgruntled a. 不高興的例:Several disgruntled employees yelled at the company's president during his speech.(若干不滿的職員在該公司董事長演講時對他大罵。)
that is such a letdown
I guess we have the same taste. 我想我們有相同的品味。
be in good taste 有品味
be in bad taste 品味差
cash register n. 收款機..., you sure are lucky I came along then.=..., you sure are lucky that I came along that time.……我當時正巧過來, 你真是走運。
bundle n. 一捆
a bundle of fire wood 一捆乾柴
a bundle of money 一疊錢
單獨使用bundle時, 則等於a lot of money。例:That car cost me a bundle.=That car cost me a lot of money.=That car cost me an arm and a leg.(那部車花了我不少錢。)
renovation n. 整修renovate vt. 整修例:The museum is being renovated and will be closed until the end of next year.(這間博物館目前正在整修，而且要到明年底才會再開放。)
workout n. 健身運動
starve vi 挨餓例:I'm starving to death.(我餓得半死。)I'm so starving that I could eat a horse.(我餓得可以把一匹馬吃掉。)
chill vt. 將……冷藏chill the food in the refrigerator 將這食物放到冰箱冷藏注意:chill可當名詞, 表感冒, 尤用於下列片語中:catch a chill 感冒=catch a cold
be bored with... 對……厭煩=be fed up with=be sick/tired of例:I'm bored with having to do the same work again and again.(做同樣的工作，我都做煩了。)
get to V 能夠……例:By traveling around, I get to know more about the beauty of the nature.(藉著到處旅遊，我能更了解大自然的美。)
all day long 一天到晚
be getting used to N/Ving 漸漸習慣於……
a check-up 身體檢查=a physical check-up=a physical例:You should have a physical on a regular basis.(你要定期檢查身體。)
take some private lessons 私下請教練授課
in the rush hour 上下班交通顛峰時間=during the rush hour例:Cars usually move bumper to bumper during the rush hour.(在交通顛峰時間，汽車一輛挨著一輛徐徐前進。)
I'd like to report a lost Nokia cell-phone. 我想要掛失一只諾其亞手機。
That shirt looks great on you.=You really look great in that shirt.(那件襯衫穿在你身上很好看。)
In one's opinion,... 依某人看法,……=In one's view,...=One is of the opinion that...例:In my opinion, John is a man of his word.=I'm of the opinion that John is a man of his word.(依我個人看法，約翰是個言而有信的人。)
perform surgery on a patient 對某病人做手術=perform an operation on a patient
let sb down 使某人失望例:Hey, Jim, don't let me down.=Hey, Jim, don't dissappoint me.(嘿，吉姆，不要讓我失望。)
disgruntled a. 不高興的例:Several disgruntled employees yelled at the company's president during his speech.(若干不滿的職員在該公司董事長演講時對他大罵。)
that is such a letdown
I guess we have the same taste. 我想我們有相同的品味。
be in good taste 有品味
be in bad taste 品味差
cash register n. 收款機..., you sure are lucky I came along then.=..., you sure are lucky that I came along that time.……我當時正巧過來, 你真是走運。
bundle n. 一捆
a bundle of fire wood 一捆乾柴
a bundle of money 一疊錢
單獨使用bundle時, 則等於a lot of money。例:That car cost me a bundle.=That car cost me a lot of money.=That car cost me an arm and a leg.(那部車花了我不少錢。)
renovation n. 整修renovate vt. 整修例:The museum is being renovated and will be closed until the end of next year.(這間博物館目前正在整修，而且要到明年底才會再開放。)
workout n. 健身運動
starve vi 挨餓例:I'm starving to death.(我餓得半死。)I'm so starving that I could eat a horse.(我餓得可以把一匹馬吃掉。)
chill vt. 將……冷藏chill the food in the refrigerator 將這食物放到冰箱冷藏注意:chill可當名詞, 表感冒, 尤用於下列片語中:catch a chill 感冒=catch a cold
be bored with... 對……厭煩=be fed up with=be sick/tired of例:I'm bored with having to do the same work again and again.(做同樣的工作，我都做煩了。)
get to V 能夠……例:By traveling around, I get to know more about the beauty of the nature.(藉著到處旅遊，我能更了解大自然的美。)
all day long 一天到晚
2008年3月12日 星期三
I'm so sad.
I was in a bit of mood today, because in English class I behave foolishly; when teacher assigned me to recite the article and say some opinions by the machine I was cacophonous, what's worse, my dear teacher twitted at me in public; how embarrassing was I, and the feeling is just like one smacked my face directly. Could anyone realize what did I feel? Could anyone imagine that most of the students in this class look at me in a uncomfortable way? I have been blue for a whole day, and I didn't want to do anything at all. Finally, even I cut BCC class, and do a lot of nonsense. What's a terrible day! I wish I could be in a good mood and lead a positive life.
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